Chapter 83 Athena's Pov
- I have been having constant nightmares. Sleep is a tug of war. It feels like whenever I close my eyes, I feel like am submerged in the depths of the ocean with no one to save me. I am getting antsy these days. Every little thing makes me angry and vulnerable. I am back to taking my medications. Jackson makes sure that I have them every morning and night and if he's not there to supervise me, Amelia is. They are both breathing down my neck but I can't really blame them now, can I? I brought this on myself when I started to act nonchalant about my health. If only I knew that Simon would say something like that to me, I would have been on my medication without stopping but now I am back to having my anxiety disorder again. Whenever I close my eyes to sleep, the only thing I hear is Simon's voice laughing at me, telling me that I don't belong to this family. Even though he is right, I can't help but feel angry. I guess I was always a liability no one ever liked. I don't really blame them. How can someone like a psychotic person like myself? That is truly unheard of. That was why I never believed in love. To me, I think it is just a fallacy. I don't know how they can stay with one person for a long time without losing their mind but if I were to date anybody which I doubt I would, I don't think I can be with that person for such a long time but I guess that isn't the case for everyone, especially Jackson, since he is always looking like some lovesick puppy in front of Amelia. It is truly sickening. Sometimes, he can never seem to stay away from her even when he is far away and he comes home, the first person he asks of is always Amelia. I thought I would be jealous of the attention she was getting but instead, I am happy that Jackson finally found someone that he can be truly happy with.
- From the amount of time he spent taking care of me, I thought that he would never have a love life despite being the Alpha but he waited patiently till the Moon goddess gave him Amelia. I guess all those patience finally paid off and I am extremely happy about that because there was nothing stopping me now. I was so worried that he would be alone forever but at least I can finally have some peace of mind even if I won't be here but I am not going to end it very soon, I still have some unfinished business with Jeremy. I know that he is hiding something. It is only a matter of time before he slips out of his little shell and exposes what is giving him all that money that made him forget his humble beginning. Just because he has started wearing nice clothes that makes him feel like he is on top of the world. Josie is so naive to think that an elite person was the one who gave Jeremy the clothes. That is a stupid assumption. The last I checked, those in the elite class don't help the likes of Jeremy for free, they always want something in return.
- Now in Jeremy's case, I don't know what he gave them but I am a hundred percent sure that those clothes weren't hand-me-downs. He went to the mall and bought those by himself. He even looked offended when I spoke about his change of wardrobe. If he didn't want anyone to pay attention to him, he should have stuck to his old clothes. I am sure no one will have questioned him but he wanted to feel like he was on top of the world. He wanted to stand out among other male servants. He wanted the ladies to look at and admire him but he didn't know that that would attract me poking my nose where it does not belong and I don't know why I have the sneaking suspicion that Jeremy might lead me to what I am looking for. I don't think he has noticed that something is missing from his room. He has been laying low in his wardrobe change since the Alpha has been at home constantly. I am sure that Jackson would ask Jeremy where he got such expensive-looking attire. I thought he was smart but instead, he is just another stupid wolf who has a really huge male ego but don't worry Jeremy, I have my eyes on you and there is no way I am letting this one slip past me.