Chapter 32 Jackson Pov

• I don't think I can remember the last time I visited the Pack doctor to give me a prescription. I only go to the Pack doctor for Athena's medication since she gets scared whenever she is near him. She has this immense phobia that she is going to contract a disease adding to what she is already suffering from the trauma. I was the one that always got her medication. I never sent Simon since I didn't trust him. He may misplace the medicine. Drake is always busy and I didn't want to add more burden to his assignments. If anyone told me that I, Jackson Kane would ever come to the Pack doctor for my immense split headache, I would have laughed at their face telling them that they were crazy but these days, it's like I'm moving from one problem to the other. Starting with Elliot trying to get as many Packs as he can to make himself more powerful than me to the councilmen annoying me and trying to get me to dispose of Amelia as the Luna of this Pack. The people trying to revolt and then the cloaked figure who I haven't figured out if the person is real or if it's just the bartender's illusion, then there is Athena who might be up to what I'm suspecting. I just hope it turns out not to be true because I don't know how I will handle that after she made such a promise to me knowing she would not keep to it. I hope she is not putting herself in harm's way because I will gladly confine her in this house if it means for her to be out of danger. Whoever it was urging her to this life or deceiving her into doing this, I had no idea but I had to get to the root of this before it got out of hand. I can't lose Athena. My parents adored her, dotted on her and I grew fond of her despite not being related in any way. I was never jealous that my parents showered Athena with love. Simon and I protected her. Simon fought for her against those who tried to ridicule her that she wasn't part of this family. He would go out of his way just to make sure that the person never opens their mouth again to talk trash about Athena but that all changed that winter. If only I could turn back time, I would make Athena happy. I will stop her but now I must do everything in my power to make sure that she doesn't make such a mistake again.
• I'm already in big trouble with Amelia. She has refused to speak with me ever since I raised my hand to hit her. I never meant for that to happen and I am glad and thankful to the Moon goddess for giving me such control to hold myself. I don't know what I would have done if I had slapped Amelia. I would never have forgiven myself. The look of fear in her eyes as her brown eyes filled up with tears, that look of betrayal. I don't know what came over me and I don't even want to know. All I have to do is to step up my game and apologize profusely to Amelia. Ever since that incident, whenever I come close to her, she finds a way to escape me but I was determined to get my Luna's forgiveness because we were on the same page. We need to be united now more than ever because if we go our separate ways or if she keeps holding that anger against me, both of us will fall and the councilmen would get what they want, the people would be happy and Elliot get stronger. Amelia would never find her Pack, something that I promised her and I was going to do all I could for Amelia King Kane to forgive me.
• The hard part was saying, I am sorry. I can't remember the last time I apologized. I tried to use different methods to show my apology by buying her gifts and all that but all of them ended up in the trash can. She is one stubborn girl but I admire that about her.