Chapter 31 Athena's Pov

• I still remember the disappointment on Jackson's face. It was measurable. He looked at me like I did something so horrible. Simon and Drake looked so confused as to what the Alpha was talking about. Even if I denied it, there was no point because it was written over his face that he knew what I was up to. I thought I was being discreet so how did he find out? This is all Lucy's fault. If she didn't blabber about what she saw, then this wouldn't have been a problem. There was no way I was getting out of this one right now, it's either I tell him the truth and await my punishment. But if I lie, the more it would be bad for me and I would attract more punishment to myself. The last thing I wanted was him making Lucy keep her eyes on me, we won't last for more than a few days till we fight or I attempt to kill her. I have to be truthful, consequences be damned. If Jackson tries to dissuade me, then I would really fight back. There was no way I had gone this far only for me to turn back. I don't care who stands in my way, I would slay anyone who interferes with it. Either you are with me or against me and I know that Jackson has enough on his plate with the councilmen being a bunch of assholes.
• I was in a dilemma as I paced up and down in Amelia's room as she took her bath. Jackson was expecting an answer from me very soon. If what he suspects is true, I have until today to give him an honest sincere answer, or else I'm going to be so sorry if tell any more lies. I have been restless since then, it's off-putting and has disrupted the balance of everything I do. I think Amelia has noticed it too, my constant tapping against the table, my habit of biting my lips and nails. She said it was distracting most times but that isn't a problem right now. If only I could run away from here to somewhere with a little solitude, then I could think of my next plan. But I know that Jackson will keep an eye on me. No matter how hard I try to be angry with him, I know that he is just doing this for my well-being but he has to understand where I am coming from. I can never be happy unless I fulfill what I was meant to. He can't go on hurting other people like me, weak and vulnerable children who have no hope of ever making it out alive.
• I was a rare case. I never argued. If I were asked to kill, I do it. If I was asked to run a thousand miles, I would run. I killed so many people I lost count. I did anything to keep myself alive, anything. As long as I obeyed them, the guards would stay a thousand feet away from me. They wouldn't force themselves on me as they did on the others, whether male or female they didn't care as long as they satisfied themselves.