Chapter 16 Jackson Pov

• The words Drake told me earlier were still ringing in my ears. But how was I supposed to say that particular word? I wasn't raised that way. What if Amelia grows to love Simon? My brother is handsome and way more jovial than me, I have never been jealous of my brother but I am starting to question myself. What the hell is wrong with me? I have never felt this way before. Whenever I see Amelia and Simon together laughing or talking in hushed whispers, there is this big lump forming in my throat, I can't seem to explain it. If I talk about this to Drake, he will only tease me, saying that I have fallen in love. A lot of this and that but I don't think this is love. I have never fallen in love before. Even if Amelia is my mate despite her not feeling the bond. I don't do love, loving someone only makes you weak but anytime I am near Amelia, I don't even know what to feel it's like a burning sensation in my chest. Maybe I should consult the Pack doctor and let him examine me, I might be sick since I have not felt this in my heart before.
• It has to be that, besides father had a heart disease and died of it. It could be that I got it from him, that is the only possible explanation for this. The earlier I know if I have it, the earlier I can get myself cured. I need to stay alive to make this Pack still stand strong. Simon doesn't want anything to do with ruling the Pack, he feels like it's a waste of time, he rather spends these days hunting in the forest, running up the mountains during snow season. He has been at home constantly, and these past few days are really getting annoying. It's like ever since Amelia arrived, Simon has always been at home. He only hunts for a few hours then comes home, unlike before when he can spend the whole day there. I trust my brother and I know that he wouldn't set his sights on Amelia but why am I having this doubt in my heart? I need to trust him and I need to trust my Luna that nothing is going on between them because if there is, I don't know what I would do. I will never forgive them if they're going behind my back. Amelia should remember the main reason why she is here in Blood Moon Pack, we have to exert our revenge on Elliot. She shouldn't get swayed by Simon or anyone else, she is here to find her Pack. She should focus on that.
• I was shocked to see Athena holding on tightly to Amelia, glaring at Lucy, that was quite the sight. I wonder what was happening there?"