Chapter 51 Crane's Pov

• Keeping secrets can do many things to you. It can either keep you sane or it can make you mad, depending on the type of secret and your personality. The thought of holding someone on a leash because of the dirty secrets you have been keeping for them is exhilarating and intoxicating. It makes you feel powerful, so powerful that nothing can compare with the power that you have. Just one flick of the finger, the person comes running to your needs without any complaints whatsoever.
• Keeping Elliot's secret for a long time almost made me run mad. That was what a secret can do to you especially if it wasn't just a small one. It can either make you strong or it will drive you to a stream of madness. Seeing Elliot that day poison our father really scared me. I mean sure I clamped my mouth shut because if he had found me that day, I am sure he would have forced the poison down my throat. Elliot hated loopholes, that was why he was so adamant about killing Amelia because he knew that maybe she would tell Alpha Jackson Kane some of the things going on in the Pack that would make Alpha Jackson grow stronger and he didn't want that.
• I should have told my mother what Elliot did then, maybe he would have gotten the help that he deserved. Instead of sharing with my mother who killed her husband and my father, I bottled it up. I tried to push it behind my mind and I didn't know that I was slowly turning into Elliot, how he behaves, and everything. Even when my mother was trying to find out the source of the poison and how it got into my father's bloodstream, I still clamped my mouth shut. I acted so surprised to see he ingested poison. Elliot was the one who cried the most. I was flabbergasted that day as I stared at him hugging my father's corpse, wailing so loudly that Arthur had to rip him away from Father. When no one was looking, Elliot smirked, feeling proud of what he did. The sick smile on his face was enough to make my stomach churn that day. When he made eye contact with me, I could no longer see the Elliot I knew, instead I saw a monster that was growing. He had a glint in his eyes that I couldn't forget. I was so scared that I averted my eyes before he poisoned me too. That made me so paranoid about anything Elliot gave me. I would make sure that I would toss it into the garbage. I don't know what he was up to or if he knew that I had any idea that he was the one that killed Father but I was slowly turning into him without knowing and meaning to.