Chapter 38 Athena's Pov

• I know I shouldn't have but I couldn't help myself, I wanted to inflict pain on her. She looked so torn when I rejected her, especially in front of Amelia. Lucy never took rejection quite well and I know that she'll be raging very soon and I know that the person who will be at the receiving end of her anger will be Jeremy. Josie knows how to keep to herself especially when someone is in a bad mood but that is not the same for Jeremy. He'll try to do everything possible to make you happy to the annoyance of the other person.
• The way she glared at Amelia who had a smug look on her face, if I didn't know Lucy very well like the back of my palm, I would have said that she was plotting something evil against Amelia but knowing her, the only thing boiling inside Lucy was jealousy She is so jealous that I have replaced her. I no longer ran to her if I needed anything. There was this strong connection I felt with her when I was little but I think her betrayal made me question everything about her no matter how hard she tried to explain herself about what happened that day but I never gave her a listening ear before Alpha Jackson assigned her to me. Lucy was avoiding me like the plague especially ever since I pushed her down harshly from the bed. She had to lie when anyone asked her why she had a band-aid on her forehead. She was waiting for an apology but it wouldn't come. I didn't feel sorry one bit instead I was happy that I injured her. I wanted to do it all over again and I knew I needed help. I couldn't live like this, someone's pain being my happiness. I have tried talking to Alpha Jackson but he ruled it as a traumatic experience for me that I will get over it one day but I don't feel it ending anytime soon, instead anything on my mind is how to kill, how to inflict pain on those who wronged me. Lucy just happens to be among the top people on my list.
• Amelia came up with a crazy idea of going outside the Palace even though the Alpha gave a strict warning not to allow her out of our sight. I guess she is a rebellious one. I used to be like that but I don't think I can grant her wish of defying Jackson. She has been persuading me for the past hour and some, and I am getting a little bit tempted into joining her in her little escapade. It's been a long since I visited the local market and tried out many street foods. Whenever I went before, Simon and Drake always tagged along as if like a protective barrier around me and it made people weary to approach since everyone knew Simon as the Alpha's brother which makes him royalty and I was the Alpha's adopted sister. They always tend to avoid us whenever we come to the market or go out to a recreation place but this will be different. I will be all alone with Amelia, no Simon and Drake breathing down my neck but this time I will be the one protecting Amelia. Maybe if I get it right this time, Alpha Jackson may take Lucy off my back because the more time she is spending with me, the more I am inclined to kill her, and I need to suppress my urges. They nicknamed me the psychopath who escaped from hell and I didn't want to live up to that nickname, it was really annoying and degrading. Jackson will be so unhappy and disappointed that I broke his rule of keeping Amelia safe inside this house but looking at her smiling face as she scanned everything in this local market pulling me along as she pointed at different things. It was so much fun to do this with a fellow female. We tried out different accessories, something I hadn't done with Simon and Drake before since they wouldn't do such girly things. Even though Alpha Jackson would be angry and disappointed with me, I can say that we both had fun today even though every good thing must come to an end.