Chapter 29 Crane's Pov

• No matter how bright and sunny the day is, I can't seem to have peace of mind. Whenever I close my eyes, all I can see is red. How does Elliot do this and still sleep comfortably at night? I know that I am a wolf and I am trained to kill but that only happens when I am in danger or attacked. I have never killed without a purpose. I was still shaken up by the fact that I murdered that man in cold blood without even thinking twice. I am really scared. What if Elliot finds out that I am the one who is behind the man following him like a dog follows its master? That would be the end of me. Even if he doesn't kill me, he will make sure that I am tortured for the rest of my life and he'll personally do it.
• Elliot is a sadist and I am not the one that has to satisfy his sadism. I'm sure Lydia, that blabbermouth will tell him that I came back with blood all over my clothes and I know that Elliot would not believe my excuse of going hunting because ever since he died, I have hated everything about hunting. If I wanted to exercise, I do that in the training field, far away from the cliff and anywhere that will trigger my memories. I wanted to bury that sad day forever in my head and not let it ever resurface. What Elliot did to him would not compare to what he would do to me but I was doing this for the love I have for Amelia. He doesn't want to understand that since he said that power was more important to him than love but to me, you need both of them to survive. If you have power, you can get any woman you want whether they like it or not, as long as you have the money and the power you can do anything that you like. What I feel for Amelia is really strong that just the thought of her name, has my heart pounding. Even after our bond has been broken, I am still not over her. I can't even start a day without thinking about Amelia. Her silky black hair, those warm brown eyes, her luscious lips. Just thinking about it is enough to drive me insane. Whenever I think about the Alpha of Blood Moon Pack touching her, there is this immense rage that fills me up and I feel like matching up to the other side of the city where Blood Moon Pack is located and killing him but I know that would be a rash decision. One that even if I come out alive, Elliot will have my head and I was not about to risk that.
• What I am really scared about is that I hope no one saw me kill that man. I will have to silence his family or send them far away from here or even threaten them if they refuse to take my offer. I could have been nicer if he had just taken the damn offer, then I wouldn't have killed him but he dared to threaten me. Just because I was not the Alpha doesn't mean that anyone can step on my toes and trample over me. Elliot is the reason why some wolves in this Pack lack respect for me. Even as their Beta, whatever I say must be run through Elliot first and I wanted that kind of power. I wanted to see Elliot crawl on his feet, pleading for his life. I know that both of us are on the same page which is to bring down Jackson Kane as the most powerful Alpha but when that happens, and Elliot becomes the most powerful Alpha, then I will be in big trouble.