Chapter 95 Nikki

• I feel like I am sinking deeper into depression. My birthday is just weeks away and the blood moon the week after. Maybe I should just go to Desert Moon Pack for my first shift, it’s a safe place away from humans. That’s all that really matters, right? It isn’t like I have my parents there to make the shift easier. And when I talked to Luna Hope about having Aunt Jeni step in she wasn’t sure that a family member who wasn’t my parents would be sufficient. So it isn’t like I need to go home for her to be with me.
• Dr. Wolfe has given me grounding techniques to work on. The one that is my preference is the Five Senses Technique commonly used for anxiety. First you acknowledge five things you can see around you. Then acknowledge four things you can touch around you. Then Acknowledge three things you can hear around you. Then acknowledge two things you can smell around you. Finally acknowledge one thing you can taste. That one really helps when things become overwhelming.
• I talk or text with Frankie daily, but he seems distracted. He says they haven’t found any new information about the attacks or the death of my mother. I just really wish I could see him. He tells me he is trying to work out his next visit. He’s just really busy with the pack house rebuild and apparently Alpha Kieran decided to build an indoor training center too. He has also been helping Luna Fran with the ball.