Chapter 173

• Maximilien abruptly woke up very disoriented and bathed in sweat, he touched his abdomen unconsciously, fearing to see blood, but he saw nothing, fortunately, it had all been a bad dream, a nightmare that seemed so real, his heart was beating frantically, he felt his throat dry, still hearing the echo of the gunshot and the heartbreaking screams of Roshene and the Nana. The guilt for what he was doing began to overwhelm him, despite the bad relationship with his father, he knew that what he was doing was wrong and incorrect, he had been instilled with the best education since he was a child and his mother had always guided him on the path of good, however, the balance was evenly split, on one side was his love for Roshene and on the other, the fact that she was a forbidden and married woman, and not just anyone, but with his father.
• He couldn't help but feel vile and dirty, however, when he saw the beautiful woman sleeping beside him, those feelings disappeared as if by magic. Carson had once snatched a girlfriend from him on a whim, for the pure pleasure and desire to annoy him, in contrast, his situation was very different, because without wanting to, he had fallen in love with Roshene, he didn't desire it, he didn't plan it, it just happened and by the time he realized it, he was deep in love for her and leaving her like that, after knowing her in such an intimate way, wouldn't be easy, he couldn't do it, he didn't want to either, he needed her by his side, but unfortunately, there was a whole world to face, situations to clarify, he didn't want to spend his whole life hiding and loving her in the darkness, besides, there was an important detail that he couldn't overlook and that was that he didn't know what she really felt for him."
• Another point he couldn't forget was Rachel, his girlfriend, he felt bad for her, for his disloyalty, he had never been unfaithful to a woman and not because he lacked opportunities, but because playing with women and deceiving them was not part of him, he had seen his mother suffer many times because of Carson and he didn't intend to follow his example.