Chapter 76

“Is this for the best?’
Ugo asked herself for the thousandth time as she walked to the diner. She opted out of riding to the diner in her motorcycle, she needed to think. She had been doing that since morning but was not sure she had arrived at the right decision. Running away, was it the best? If it was the right decision why did it tear her apart to think of it? Leaving everyone and everything she loved behind with no hope of ever seeing them again, especially Dante. She was running from him yet the idea of not ever seeing him again was killing her. She loved him. In fact she didn’t think she ever stopped loving him. She might had blocked the thought of him from her mind these past seven years but having him in her life these four days had been a sweet torture. She didn’t want to lose him again.
Was it fair on her son to deny him the joy of knowing his father and having him in his life? Ugo knew her father but he wasn’t in her life. It had hurt, it still hurt. She had wanted a family – father, mother and brothers and sisters. Kenny had shared her family with her, but it was not the same. She had wanted her own family. Was it fair to make her son go through the same hurt and insecurities she grew up with, especially when there was chance that he might not need to? She’s a mother, was it not her duty as a mother to do what was best for her child? She knew running and leaving everything behind was not what was best for her son.