Chapter 58

• The pack is getting uneasy, and Meadow mentioned he hadn’t called any kind of communal since, as though he’s avoiding any real dialogue with any of us. He knows the pack will have questions about this. He brought me to them, made it seem like I might have a chance, and then snubbed me as they were beginning to accept my presence.
• He’s caught inside his head as he tries to work things out, but we’re losing time. Ticking away slowly as the full moon approaches in its cycle, I don’t think I can take much more. Logic is telling me to give up on him, but I don’t want to accept it. That he’s done and given up on us after what he said to me, my heart doesn’t want to believe he could be this way.
• I’ve been lost in my thoughts, anxious, obsessing, crying, and worrying myself sick with the chaos of this lack of closure. I’m not being a cold idiot, cutting him off, or avoiding him like he is with me. I would talk to him in a heartbeat if he let me. It’s like he just abandoned me after dumping me in his sub pack, with no idea what I’m supposed to be now, how to feel, and what I’m meant to do after the full moon.