Chapter 537

He smiles at me, but I know it’s pasted on and disingenuous. His eyes flicker to the side until he spots something, then excuses himself with a peck on my cheek in a hurried fashion. I watch as he almost drags Daniel out of his seat in passing, they disappear through a door near the side exit, which takes you further into this grand hotel restaurant. Leaving me alone only makes me a hundred times worse.
My heart is pounding through my chest. The people around me are chatting and smiling my way, even Sylvana is trying to draw me into a conversation, but my eyes are scouring the room for Sarah. She’s obviously been told to stay out of sight until the big moment. I have no idea what to do with myself. I don’t even know if I’m angry at what he’s doing so publicly or if I want it this way, and I’m just terrified. I can’t even voice my fear because I’m not supposed to know what this is. I can only sit here, curling up the napkin in front of me, counting as I breathe, trying to quell the panic that has every nerve ending on high alert.
I have no clue how to feel or why I even feel this way. All the old inner Emma instincts are to run and hide, but the new Emma is holding me in my seat, all battling inside of my head with fears and reasoning, weighing up pros and cons, making my head ache.