Chapter 435

• My day will consist of nothing but sitting around unless I plan something productive. I end up in Jake’s rarely-used home office with my laptop, trying to work through everything Margo has forwarded at my request. That month I was away from being Jake’s PA, and this side of the business is making it difficult for me to slot back into this role, and I’m finding it less satisfying.
• During the time we’ve spent at the office since returning, I’ve barely made a dent in the workload and found every file ridiculously hard to focus on. My mind always wanders to the six-foot-two hunk in the next room. I used to love working for and with Jake, but now, looking back, I think it was more than just the job; it was him and being around him, even if I couldn’t admit it to myself back then. Now that he is mine, he’s all I can focus on, and I’m finding returning to PA mode more than difficult.
• Staying home today hadn’t only been because Jake insisted. I didn’t want to go in and deal with the mundane. My head is all over the place, and old in-control-and-got-her-crap-together Emma is so far removed from who I have become; this is getting difficult. The change in dynamics between us has altered how I feel about my career, something which shocks me to the core. I have more than just a job now; I have a future to look forward to. I have hope. I have love from someone who makes me re-evaluate everything I had planned for and painstakingly worked toward in the man-free, single life I had.