Chapter 13

• Generally, males treat femmes with respect after turning, but not all. Hormones, lack of a mate, and sometimes undirected testosterone levels contribute to rogue males with little consideration of punishment when fueled by a need to have sex. We are primal animals, and sex is in our basic everyday makeup once we turn for the first time. I know I’m already suffering for the cravings to be fulfilled. My body is yearning for my mate to join me until I feel I may turn inside out with the painful internal pangs for his body. The annoying part is that no one else will do, and I have zero interest in any kind of instant relief with any other male, or any form of self-pleasure, not that I would know how. It’s not been high on my list of priorities in life.
• I’ve become aware, more than ever now, that I am no longer safe in this home when surrounded by unmated males. The lack of an actual pack means a lack of protection and any kind of consequences from a male who brutally takes what he wants. We live in a cruel world, and, like an unwanted, no one cares about the rejects. Especially not if one reject attacks and violates another. We have no backup.
• It doesn’t matter if every one of them saw me imprint on Colton; it’s public knowledge Juan is denying the bond, and he has sent me to dwell here to stay away from his son. They know not to kill or maim me, but messing me up a little, doing unspeakable things ... his son would recover the pain quickly and not carry the emotional scarring that I would - I’m not safe.