Chapter 174

• "You told Meadow you care about the wolves at the mountain... So maybe you're not all that self-absorbed. You loved your mom; you did what you thought was right for her." I point out, hoping to open an avenue of conversation, but her darkening look as she glares ahead tells me I said the wrong thing. Her whole posture stiffens, signaling she doesn't want to discuss this.
• "Look how that helped... I got her killed, and all this..... Maybe it's better when I don't give a shit about people. They always fuck me over anyway." the biting undertone, the undercurrent of bitterness, and guilt hit me in the stomach as I connect her last sentence to maybe what Colton did. What the sub-pack did was turn away from her and root for me instead. I guess it was a betrayal in her eyes that she was so easily cast aside as something worthless, even if it's not exactly how it played out. Even though he had no control over imprinting and breaking her heart, she still carries the pain she saw as adultery.
• "What happened in the months since we left?" I don't know what else to say, so maybe a question would be better, and as she is clamping down on the other topic, I should try and ease the atmosphere with chat. I feel out of my depths, weird, and moody even though I seem calm and upbeat.