Chapter 511

Jake is handling all I am throwing at him, bringing home my favorite foods when he goes out to meetings and pampering me with gifts and love notes to find whenever I open a drawer or use the bathroom. He leaves little surprises for me to find whenever he goes out. He’s trying so hard to show me that I am loved and wanted, yet all he’s getting in return is an unhinged emotional psychopath who occasionally shows hints of the girl he loves. I need to stop pushing him away and acting so hostile, or I’ll be chasing Jake to win him back. But I can’t help it. Something in me in the last two weeks has grown overly uncontrollable, with an emotion bubbling inside of me that I can’t pick out, an aching cavern of emptiness that I have no way of dealing with or know how to deal with.
“I think he might get sick of how I’m being,” I verbalize my inner doubt without thinking. Shivering at the thought.
“No, he won’t, Emma. You’re pregnant, and you’re grieving over what he did. I’m sure even Jake has the intelligence to see that, and he’s sure as hell got the sense to let you do it. Are you back? I mean, are you … intimate again?” Her question surprises me, but with Sarah, she does like the juicy details.