Chapter 327 Jake

• I sit blinking back what I think could be tears. I did not expect to be near tears from her response, but that is seemingly what had happened. Did she not want to speak to me? She had to know we were coming home tonight, there was no way she could not. I had gone over this and knew she had to know, and yet she made sure she had her mind-link blocked? I can't lie that stung. Maybe I had misread the situation after all. Or maybe she needed more time and space like I had initially planned?
• I don’t fucking know! I am evidently useless with women. That was becoming more and more clear as time was going on! Don't understand them, they confuse me. Do they take classes as teenagers on how to confuse guys?! Because they sure as hell make me confused as fuck! I can't read them, they seem to struggle to read me. I think I am making them happy, yet it seems I am making them miserable... Perhaps this is fate's way of telling me I am better alone. Meant to be on my own. Oh I don't know. I am not going to sit and ponder over it either, nor feel sorry for myself. I have done enough of that lately.
• I needed to get out, go for a run, and could feel Jaxx pushing to do the same. He needs some freedom. Some time to run off some energy and stress. This has been the first time since the incident with Rose he has been pushing forward like this, so I am not going to force him back. Maybe this was a sign he had begun to accept what had happened. Besides, I need the freedom too. The space, the fresh air. I go and throw on some shorts before heading for the back door of my house and running up in the direction of the forest toward the lake. The late afternoon sunshine feels lovely on my back. I plan to be out for a while. My friends are no doubt enjoying spending time with their families and understandably so.