Chapter 150 Gabriel

I have been out on a run multiple times, letting Aspen free to take out his stress, hurt and anger on some smaller prey. He is pining for his mate right now, not understanding why his mate has left, though in all fairness I don’t fully understand what has happened. Lola has explained things but it still doesn’t make sense to me, or maybe I don’t want it to make sense.
My heart and my head are hurting too much right now, I know at some point I am going to have to be a big boy and accept that my mate just doesn’t want to be with me, or simply cant be with me due to the messed up way their pack is run. Though I have to say I am worried for Manny, if that is how the pack is run, surely that could mean he is at risk of losing his mate, and I don’t know if he would be able to cope with that.
I know I am stronger than him, or at least I think I am, and I could see just last night how attached he was with his mate. Though I think we all knew that would be the case for Manuel, he was such a sweet guy, we knew the moment he met his mate he would be walking over hot coals for her, doing everything he could to make her happy, so having a situation where things don’t necessarily run smoothly for him worries me. He doesn’t need that.