Chapter 141 Esme

• I had struggled climbing down from the bathroom window, but I guess all the tree climbing as a young girl had done me good in the end. Who would have thought back then when I was doing all the tree climbing with the boys it would be in preparation for running away from my future mate…
• I had got away with only a few scrapes, no doubt a few bruises by morning but I am sure Kya would help them heal. Albeit reluctantly, as she was not happy with me right now. She was devastated leaving her mate behind. She had wanted to complete the mating process, so happy to have finally the other half to her, so for me to run out on him she had been screaming in my mind, trying her hardest to push forward and shift to make me stay. I had to struggle with all my might to keep her back. She was now sulking in my mind, a mixture of hurt, anger and pain emanating from her being. Stupidly, all the same things I was feeling, but I had to do what I did, I had to run. I could not let myself become attached to the man I had been fated to, despite how perfect he was, despite how much I wanted him. Not that it would matter much now, he would likely hate me for the pain I had caused him. I was by the pack gates, leaving when I heard the howl of pain. I assume that was him shifting. Who else would it be at that time of night?
• A small part of me hurt that he didn’t come to look for me, but then the rest of me was relieved because it couldn’t have changed the situation. I could not be his mate. I had to be sensible. No matter what I wanted in my heart, I had to do the right thing. This was too risky.