Chapter 307 Jake

• My brain replays what he has just said. Yes, I want to get this over with. He isn’t wrong. Why the hell else does he think I am even here? I am here to do the right thing and get this done. So I can then find a way to work on the gut wrenching, soul-destroying shit going on within my mind, in my shattered remnants of my heart, and find a way to cope with it so I can then somehow find a way to continue living my life. Albeit alone now. And hopefully, find some semblance of happiness if possible.
• So yes, I am here to get this over and done with. He is most definitely not wrong. But what the hell does having a proper chat mean? That seems to imply to me that he hasn’t got us here to talk about Rose dying? That he potentially isn’t bothered by Rose dying? This seems so wrong. A pack member has died, he has been called to be notified of that. Told that an Alpha of the pack in which she died will be travelling over to notify her family formally, and he is fine with that. He allows that to happen, welcomes them quite happily. But then, when they arrive, he is acting like there is nothing going on, like there is an ulterior motive for coming. Hmm, I am not sure I trust him. Just to make the whole situation even better, the fucking Alpha is making me feel on edge...
• And to make it even worse, Knox seemed to be being all friendly with him. Is he fucking clueless? Or is he just trying to keep the peace? I dare not say anything to Knox, or in general, in case I piss him off. He has already threatened to use his Alpha order on me, and I don’t want him to do that. I know what that will do to him, and I don’t want to put him under that amount of guilt. Plus, I don't think that would reflect well on him in front of another Alpha or the other pack either. We do not need to make ourselves look any worse than we already have! Or I already have. They are going to think badly enough of us soon enough...