Chapter 169 Manuel

I am lying in bed, my arms wrapped around my beautiful mate. Where I imagined I would feel happiest. And while having her in my arms makes me feel happy, I also feel a shallow emptiness too that I can't fully describe, a feeling of dread, that has me on edge. A feeling that right now, I feel like my world is crumbling around me. It is already the early hours. I can't sleep. I have tried. Laying here for hours. We returned home from Lilah and Knox’s home having heard the news and discussing the final arrangements for tomorrow.
Lola and I ordered in a pizza and watched a film, as neither of us could be bothered to cook. Our cases for tomorrow were now sat by the front door, everything ready to go. But in truth I did not want to go. I was truly regretting my choice of going there now and folloiwng the usual protocol.
I was terrified. I was unsure what tomorrow and this trip would hold. Would I be coming home with my mate? Would I be coming home heartbroken because she had chosen to stay with her pack and her family because of the punishments her Alpha has chosen for her for breaking their pack rules by allowing me to mark her?