Chapter 147 Esme

• I sat in the flat my heart feeling like it was breaking, I should be back at the Midnight Forest Pack, at Gabriel’s home, getting to know my fated mate, yet instead I am having to accept the fact I have had to flee from my own fated mate when in truth I wanted nothing more than to be with him. All because of the messed up Alpha and pack we came from. I had never hated him more than I did right this moment. We had never got on, my Alpha and me, forever clashing, but right now I wished him dead, wished pain on him, wanted him to suffer. Because of him I had to leave my fated mate, the one I truly wanted to be with.
• My wolf Kya had withdrawn into the nether areas of my mind now having thrown a serious tantrum at me earlier and was not happy with me for leaving our fated mate, but I had to follow pack orders, and had to do what I did. I could not stay with him, no matter how much I wanted to. It was not safe. I had to much to lose. There was too much at risk. I just hope that Lola had not allowed her mate to mark her either, she was not strong enough to cope with our Alpha and the consequences of going against his wishes. She could be putting herself in danger and that worries me.
• But ultimately that was not my concern, as much as I want to protect my cousin, she was and adult and she had to make her own choices, I had warned her, and then I had done what I needed to do, I had stuck to the agreements I had made with the pack in order for me to be allowed to come to University. They can’t withdraw me now surely? I need this, this is my reason for living. This is my sole purpose in life. The thing that keeps me going.