Chapter 193 Knox

• Leaving Lilah and Kai was torture, never having left them since being mates with her, but I had to be a good Alpha and go and be there to represent our pack to the Council, though to be fair my Dad was doing a good job of that. And I knew he was more than capable of dealing with all of the issues that may come up with it, he had been the Alpha of our pack at the end of the day. I would have been happy to allow him to deal with that, he had been so far. The real reason I had eventually booked the ticket was Gabe.
• Hearing he was hurt was the final straw. I was in bits. I could not just sit up at our pack and await news any longer. I was terrified for my friend. I needed to be down there and be there with him. Not that I could physically help him, but I could be with him. And that is what I wanted to do. As did Dan. We were all so close. Like brothers as well as friends. And the fact he was hurt meant we were scared for him, and we felt the need to be by his side, and also to be there for the toehrs too, as they must be in pieces seeing him like that. We needed to be together, support each other. That is what we do.
• I blamed myself for not guessing he would do this. I have known him since we were kids. I know how his mind works, I should have known he might decide at the last minute he wanted to be there. But he had been so far from himself the last few days, I just hadn't seen it coming. He has been so unlike himself, so unpredictable. I don't think he has been close to what he would normally be like. So could I have guessed? I don't know, but I still can't shake the guilt of not guessing he might. I hate the fact I didnt see this coming. I wish I could have stopped him going.