Chapter 316 Ruby

• I had been listening for updates while helping out in the art store, and whilst around pack. I know I had been avoiding his mind links before he went because I was struggling coping with everything that had happened, not because of him, just because I struggle with violence, blood and aggression after the shit we went through in Crimson Night Pack before coming here.
• Seeing someone die in front of me and knowing it was because of me made it harder for me to accept. I don’t blame Jake, or Jaxx for that matter, they had saved my life. I just wish I hadn’t seen it happen, it had screwed with my mind so badly. It brought back memories I had tried so hard to lock away.
• Pushing Jake away was probably selfish of me. Esme had lectured me numerous times, telling me Jake had been in touch asking if I was ok. She had been telling me I was selfish for blocking him out. But I did not think I could help him the way he needed me to when it felt like I was falling apart again myself. He needed support, of course he did, but I just hoped his friends and family could give him that, because I knew I was not in the right frame of mind to give him the help he needed. As much as I truly wanted to.