Chapter 204 Knox

• I wanted to go and check Gabe was ok, desperate to be by my friend's side. but right now Esme and Mateo were by his bed, and I felt it was necessary to let them be with him. His Dad and his mate should be with him. Dan and I were standing in the corner of the room. Both quiet, both watching the scene in front of us. Both broken, I could feel that. I felt like I was in pieces. I hate seeing my friend like this. He should not be like this. I can feel Dan trembling slightly next to me.
• I wonder if he is full of emotion and turmoil like I am. It doesn’t feel right seeing Gabe like this. He is a warrior, he is not meant to be weak and vulnerable in a hospital bed. Not to mention quiet and unable to be cracking jokes, having a laugh like he normally does. It feels so wrong in so many senses. It makes this whole situation so much more scary to me. And this situation truly was scary. Absoloutely fucking terrifying. And not that much scares me as an Alpha. But losing those close to me does. Having no control over them being ok. This scares me.
• That probably doesn’t make sense. But that is how it feels. He looks ill too, and that is not good. I hope these Drs are able to help him. I truly do. My gut feeling is that I want him taking to our pack hospital if I am honest, so I know the Drs, know they have the best possible treatment available, as here I don’t know how they work, don’t know the staff and don’t know what they have available.