Chapter 76 A Confused Heart

• GENESIS
• The words that I wanted to spit out of my mouth suddenly ran back into my throat and I could only gape at the man in front of me with annoyance, confliction, and surprise. Who was this man in front of me and where is the Jordan that I had learned to live with? Was he really the same Jordan that left me at the altar on our wedding day? The same Jordan who never returned for days and when he did, he came back with a woman by his side. The woman he loved with his whole being, the one he claimed I had pretended to be. Was this the same Jordan or was this a different man?
• I still found it hard to connect these two Jordans as one. One time I had been so scared of this man, I never went close to him and every time I accidentally did, he had hurt me. That Jordan never wanted to protect me, he wanted to hurt me and he wanted me out of his life in all possible ways. Whereas this Jordan was caring, he made sure I ate, applied ointments on me, and even watched me sleep. This Jordan left work to come back home so he could accompany me to where I was going. How could this man be the same person?