Chapter 207 Don't Leave, Will You?

• I could hear my baby crying in my ears, screaming in pain and asking me why I did what I did. I could imagine the judging, hateful look those blue eyes would give me once she opened her eyes and the pain that would show itself in those eyes of hers. The pain was enough to consume me, to burn me, to torment me. With heaviness in my chest, I looked away from her unconscious body, lying on the bed with family around her. I could not bear to look at her, I could not dare to even think of going close to her, not after what I had done.
• I should have been more patient, more careful, more tolerant. I should have attempted to listen to her. But I didn’t. It was not her fault and I would have accepted my own child. She came at a time when our world was dark and I was about to lose my life. She came way before I decided that I didn’t want to have a baby, and like a miracle, she survived. How I snuffed the life out of her.
• I would forever live with this pain, wouldn’t I? This guilt, the memories, and the very thing I had done to the woman who meant the world to me. It would never go away, even though I wished that it was all a dream. I hoped that it was a nightmare that I would wake up from. But that wouldn’t do it. I had hurt my child, I had hurt my baby, I had hurt my wife.