Chapter 18 Torn

• GENESIS
• My steps quickened as I walked through the hallway to get to my room. I feared that if I slowed down, Jordan might catch up with me. I feared that if I slowed down, I might pass out from how fast my heart was pounding in my chest. I feared that if I slowed down, then everyone would see that I was weak and scared.
• "What the hell are you doing?" I asked myself, feeling like crying. All I could picture was Jordan's angry face, his angry eyes, and those were not what I wanted to see. I had secretly hoped that I wouldn't see him for another five years, but I saw him again that morning. After I had spoken to him in such a terrible manner, I went ahead and made it worse that same morning. I had become so scared of him. It was unbecoming. What if he threw me out? Or went after my friends or family? No, I shook my thoughts and tried to calm down. Yet, all I could see was an angry Jordan who almost ran me over, the Jordan that hated me with every fiber of his being. The thought of such coldness and rage in his eyes left my skin feeling cold. As my thoughts traveled back and forth, my body trembled in fear.