Chapter 190 Journal

• Tears blurred my vision, seeing all the love he once had for me until I grew older. He was no longer in these videos and I was always alone. However, I wasn’t alone, because he was always somewhere, looking at me. I stopped having a smile on my face, I stopped being happy, I stopped running. That was after I was diagnosed and my father began to show his true self.
• More videos of me came up and I was almost never happy. One hour later, it was still me, during graduation, during family dinner, during public functions, videos of me that were never even supposed to exist. And in all of them, though I was alone, my father was at a distance and his eyes were always on me. They were not cold, they were not harsh, simply a father staring lovingly at his son. These videos went on even until the day my heart failed and I was rushed to the hospital. He kept telling me that he would make it right, that it would be fine, that he would change it all.
• Tears ran down my eyes when I realized that he knew every time I was out of the country and was always watching me in every place I went. He was there when my heart failed and had done something to save me. The video ended right at that moment and I couldn’t help but pick up the journal that he left. Genesis smiled and kissed my head before leaving me alone to find out answers myself. I needed to know why? What was the video for? What did it mean?