Chapter 21 - Nightmares

• As the day wears on, we finalize our plan. I'm going to go down to the prison block in the morning. The earlier the better, then Thomas will bring me back to my room and watch over me. Luna has asked if she can be there for me as well, but I only want Thomas for the first 24 hours, I agreed, however, as that isn't fair to him. After agreeing that Luna can join us to relieve Thomas on and off over the coming days, we move on to lighter topics. Thomas tries to keep the mood light all evening, we play some childish card games, we eat huge amounts of junk food, we watch multiple comedy films, we laugh and joke around until tears run down our cheeks.
• Somehow, he manages to get me to have some fun. He probably planned all of this because he knows it will be a while before I can smile again. Luna Lily and Alpha Sven stopped by my room to see us. We told them of our plans and discussed their plans for Ace. They told us they were going to wait for his release. They will allow some time to pass, observing him from a distance, so they might determine if he has understood their lesson or not. They say that if they feel he has not learnt and grown from the experience, then he will be demoted, he will no longer be Beta. They mention promoting the Delta family, and Thomas and I hold our tongues and share a glance, but we can't say anything until we are on our way. I just hope that they understand why we held off when they finally learn the truth and don't hold it against us. Though we won't be here, I will not be able to cope with it if they turn against me. I have come to love them in the last month, and I admire them both so much, especially Luna Lily, who has treated me as a daughter. I hope that they realise quickly that Ace will never change. I doubt even my rejection will humble him. He feels the world owes him a debt, and he intends to collect it by force if needs must.
• It is currently 1 am. I can't sleep. All kinds of different scenarios keep running through my thoughts. Thomas lay beside me, sleeping peacefully. He didn't want to leave me tonight, not after I had decided I was going to do the rejection as soon as possible. I try to think happy thoughts, to dream of the future, but always there, in the background, waiting to jump forward and consume me were the thoughts of the coming days. How will I fare? How will Ace react? I just don't know, and not knowing what is driving me up the wall, every time I close my eyes. A different scene plays out before me. Ace accepts easily, and the pain is over quickly. Ace breaks free and kills me before I finish speaking. Ace plots to have me killed whilst I am bedridden. I die from the pain, so many possible outcomes…