Chapter 52 Very Bad Start

• I could barely sleep because of anxiety. On the one hand, the new job. I wanted to do everything very well, and on the other hand, Dad. Was it really him last night or did I imagine it? And if it was him, why didn't he come in and what was he doing here at that time of night? It's all very strange. What is happening with Dad? I have to go see him. I can't leave him alone if he's sick. Would he go back to drugs? I hope it's not that!
• It would be terrible if he relapsed after so many years of abstinence. If that's the case, surely Mima can't find out, or she'll die of disgust. I will have to go see him as soon as possible. He is not mean to me and I am his only daughter. Why wouldn't Mum want to give him more children? If I had a brother or sister, all of this would be more bearable. Thank goodness I met Marta. After turning things over and over in my head, I fall asleep.
• The alarm clock rings and I wake up scared. I set it half an hour before I usually get up. I don't want to get caught in traffic. I do everything quickly and get ready with the new clothes I bought yesterday. I like the result a lot. I go down to breakfast. Mima is up and happy.