Chapter 94
- Pissed Off
- Mandy’s POV
- I can’t help but get pissed off at mother for the first time since meeting her. How could she preach to me about Matteo, when her son is off doing who knows what with Ava. They have been photographed in public more than once since I left home. He hasn’t even called me to check on MJ, or to see how I am doing since I am carrying our new little bun. I’m tired of being ran over by everyone in my life, it is about time I stand up for myself. And that is exactly what I do. “How come you are here worried about what I might or might not do. When it is your son who is living with another woman in our family home. He hasn’t made any contact to check on either one of his kids. At night if I have the urge to see him, all I have to do is pull up social media, because there will be a picture of him and Ava going out. Holding hands, kissing, or dancing together at the club. Yet I am the one who takes care of his son day in and day out, without a complaint. I stay cooped up in this penthouse, because I am too scared to go out and make new friends, because I am afraid of what Matteo might do to either them or me. I’m getting so lonely I feel depressed most of the time. I’m not sure if it is the pregnancy hormones that is making everything ten times worse, or if things are actually as bad as I think they are. Matteo filled my head with nothing but lies, and empty promises and even though at the time I thought I didn’t want them. I have come to terms with the fact that I not only crave him, but I depend on him. Mother he dumped me for another woman. There is no sugar coating it, that is the truth plan and simple. So, I have two options I can either live in the past and dwell on what I once meant to Matteo, or I can move on and try to be happy for both of my kids sake. I was unsure up until this point on how I would handle the Don’s offer, but after speaking with you I know exactly which path I am going to walk down. I’m not wasting any more of my life waiting on Matteo. I hope that loosing Matteo doesn’t mean that I lose you to. You are like a mother to me, and I love you and really enjoy you being part of our lives. But I understand if you need to take a step back away from me. I’m surprised that Matteo hasn’t instructed you to. It was always so important to him that you and I got along. So, he must be the same way about you and Ava. Jus, please remember that I wouldn’t have made it this far without your help, and I love you with all of my heart. You are a wonderful mother, friend, and teacher.”