Chapter 106
- Confessions
- Mandy’s POV
- Matteo is staring at me with a pity. I instantly get pissed off. Pregnancy Hormones are a bitch. I’m not sure if it because of the time apart that we have spent, but I don’t bite my tongue like usual. I let everything that I am feeling so to surface. “Don’t you dare look at me like that. I don’t want or need you to pity me. I already know what is going happen so why wait. Just go ahead and reject me now. At least this way, when you go out and fuck your nasty whores. You would have already let me know where my place is. I’ll be able to hold my head up high and not care about what everyone around me is thinking. I don’t understand why you even brought me back here. Just so I can suffer and be miserable while you live your life the way you want, and with whom ever you want. While I stay locked up living at your parents’ house, because you choose to move in your mistress into our home. If the only reason that I am back is because the family doesn’t believe in divorces, then I will swear to you that I won’t ever ask for one. Just let me go back to the place where I have made a home for me and our kids. Since, you can’t or won’t give me the love I so desperately want from you. Give me the chance to find my own happiness. I’ll follow whatever rules you want to put in place. I’ve always tried to be a good wife to you, someone who you would be proud of, I’ve obeyed every command you’ve ever given me. But it’s time to face the facts. I’m not enough for you. Even though it hurts now I will eventually get over it. The only way I can do that is if you quit dragging me along. I will always love you, and my biggest regret is that I couldn’t be the woman you needed to be by your side. I’ve seen the pictures of your and that bitch Ava. The way you look at her, the smile on your face. You have never smiled at me like that or held the lust that was in your eyes when staring at Ava. She makes you happy, something I haven’t been able to do. I was just a solution to a problem. Now that the issue has been resolved, you have lost any interest in me. As much as I hate to speak these words out loud, because it means that I am about to lose you again. I guess my first hint should have been when you never came to visit MJ and me. All those months you stayed away from us. At first, I thought that you weren’t allowed to, but when I approached Councilman Igor about you being you coming to the apartment, because I was missing you. He informed me that you didn’t need his permission you could come and go as you pleased. I have to admit that one hurt quite a bit. So, how about we just call our marriage what it is that would be over. Now if you would please excuse me, I haven’t been sleeping that well, and this baby keeps me wore out. I need to go rest.”