Chapter 86 Sin

• As the unwanted feeling began welling up inside of me, I wanted to slap myself across the face. I needed to do something to snap out of it, anything to shake this feeling. Ethan’s face started to grow pale and my hands trembled as I stared at the man I’d spent lifetimes with. I wanted him gone, I didn’t want to see his face any longer. The sooner the better, before this disgusting feeling could grow any larger than it already had. I had asked Shane to take his time and make Ethan’s blood run, but now I just wanted him gone, erased from my memory, erased from this life.
• I wanted him to suffer as I had, but no amount of torturing would make him feel what I had felt. Nothing Shane did could make him feel what I was going through now that I had all of my memories back. Nothing could make the wrongs he’s done right and I hate that I know this. My throat dries as Shane grabs a handful of hair and the largest part of me that loves him and only him approves, but the small part of my me that clings to the memory of him and loved him, sobs. It won’t shut up and stay down. I shake my head in disbelief as the larger part of my soul that belongs to Shane whispers that we’d gone through too much in the first life to be forgiven because the following six were the complete opposite.
• Even though I know the Ethan that cursed me and my mate in the first life is a monster, the Ethan over every life after that had been amazing. Guilt pricked at my corners of my heart. Every day I had spent with Ethan had filled me with a love he had no right to. I was sick to my stomach as I remembered each and every past life I’d spent with him. There was nothing I could do to stop the oncoming memories as they flooded in and flashed from one to the other.