Chapter 44 Mind Games

• The silence was deafening on the drive back to the packhouse. At least it was awkward for me. Not a word had been spoken since we claimed each other and I didn’t know what to say, Goddess, I didn’t know what to do with my hands. Why was this even bothering me? My head was turned at an uncomfortable angle in a poor attempt at hiding my face from Shane. I had chewed on my lip so much today that it was bleeding now. Even though I knew he could feel my emotions through the bond, I didn’t want him to see the panic. My throat was dry and it was a struggle keeping my breathing slow and even, but I hyper-focused on it so I didn’t sound like a pig.
• No matter how slow I breathed, how hard I fought to keep my shoulders from trembling, or how much I tried not to fidget, my hands shook. Shane and I had done it—we’d had sex and we’d done it in the back of his truck on my birthday. Not once had I questioned giving it up in the back of someone’s truck. If I’m being totally honest with myself, sex had never been on my mind. At least, not until I realized he was noticing me.
• My mind was racing a mile a minute and my heart felt like it was going to explode—and that wasn’t even everything. Not only had he taken my innocence, he marked me as his, he claimed me, and I him. My cheeks flamed as the memory flashed through my mind. I clenched my thighs and a breath moan fell from my lips as I remembered all the obscene things he’d done to me in this very truck. If he noticed, he didn’t say.