Chapter 89

• Since I found out about the trip to London, I've been biting my nails. The anxiety about what might happen there keeps me from sleeping. The fact that Joziah doesn't want me in his son's life is not the problem, but now he's willing to push me out of the picture. It's now more clear than ever that he doesn't like me, and a slight suspicion makes me feel like he wants him to get back with his ex.
• I don't think it's a coincidence that he came back to Mexico with her project in hand, and that he chose me to be in charge of it. I believe, rather, that he has everything planned.
• I've thought about telling Ian, exposing what I feel and think. I never wanted this kind of lifestyle for myself, at least not in this way. I understand that he's a millionaire, that he can afford luxuries that a simple lower-class mortal like me can't, and that's fine. But if there's one thing I've fought for throughout our relationship, it's that I don't want to be seen as a climber, a user, or someone who's only interested in his money.