Chapter 42 Pretending To Be Asleep

• I try my best to sleep but I can not maybe because I am so happy. I can feel that he is still sitting beside me. I want to open my eyes and talk with him or stare at him to make sure whether he is real, but I can not. He has just ordered me to sleep although he was in a gentle manner.
• I control my breath to pretend that I am sleeping. Not long later, I hear he stand up. “ Is he going to leave?” I can not tell whether I am happy or not when I make the guess, but he does not move actually. I hold my breath and dare not to move, especially my eyes. It feels that he is looking at me. “Why is he looking at me? Has he found that I am acting sleeping?” My heart drops more quickly and I they are not open my eyes to face his possible anger. Suddenly, I hear him sigh and say, “ Emelia...” I almost respond subconsciously, but luckily I hold myself back.
• He seems to not have found that I am pretending to be asleep. He stares at me for some time and I hear the footsteps going away from me. I hear him open the door. I wait for a few seconds and hear the door closed. I open my eyes. When I see that no one is in the room, I take a deep breath. After he becomes a gentleman, I like to stay beside him and enjoy his caring. But when he is beside me, my heart always jumps fast. I do not know why. Maybe because I feel nervous while he is around. Why do I feel nervous? Maybe because he has bullied me for a long time before. Yes, my heart jumps just because I am too nervous.