Chapter 49 Confessions

• "Ady... love... please..." I hear him calling me as I hurriedly walk towards my car, fully intending to leave. My sister stayed there without answering, and I doubt she even cares. From my point of view, she doesn't deserve another glance from me, nor for me to waste my time on her. It's better not to have someone like her by my side, as all it will bring is pain and discomfort, for me... and I've had enough of that in my life for a long time, I don't want any more mistreatment and insecurities. There are good people by my side, few, but they exist... that's what I need. It hurts that it's my family, my only sister... but that's how it is... there's no point in thinking about what would happen if things were different.
• Now that I had discovered everything... I was amazed that it was worse than I had imagined. Not only were more people involved, but everything was more complex... and what affected me the most was that it was all behind my back, I knew nothing about this for years. I feel as if I have lived in a great and horrible lie, it was... devastating. My sister hated me just because she believed I had something she didn't, something she couldn't even comprehend, I never felt special or deserving of anything. All of this could have been avoided if she hadn't spoken the way she did... I regret it so much. How is it possible to have so much hatred? So much resentment for so many years?
• And, on the other hand... there was Brandon, who had added his grain of sand to this terrible desert I was suffering. I didn't want to see him either, God knows I wanted to run away for the fiftieth time... but he keeps insisting, I literally hear his steps behind me, calling me, running to catch up with me and stand in front of me, undoubtedly to prevent my hasty escape. His face is flushed from the argument with my sister and is marked by desperation and surprise, it seems almost instinctive, to prevent me from leaving.