Chapter 10 Date

• What a damn strange day I've had, I think to myself at night when I go to bed. It has been a long day, but productive. It had its good parts, others... really nothing out of the ordinary. It was already strange enough that I had a date. I had downloaded a few dating apps, only to delete them decisively after several disasters. I was convinced that... I wanted something genuine, a real relationship... Was that too much to ask for?
• Well, it seemed not because everything went really well with Robbie... strangely great. There was good conversation, intense gazes, smiles, laughter, good food, I learned about his life and he has an extremely pleasant personality. Robbie was nice, without being over the top, attractive, and seemed to be a good person, a good man.
• Perhaps if I were more open, or thinner, or blonder, or taller, or with less flesh, or less curvaceous in certain areas, or spoke more, or suddenly had more friends, or had gone to university, or went to more parties... if all those "perhaps" were fulfilled, I would have what I wanted. A better position, a better job, a loving boyfriend, acceptance and respect, someone in my life who would love me the way I want to be loved.