Chapter 45 Half-truths

• I can't believe it. It can't be that he's such a good actor. For what purpose? To make fun of me... God, would he be capable of that? No, I really don't think so. He truly has no idea... he doesn't, it's true. I look at him, opening my eyes wide like a crazy person, and he's surprised by my expression, my response to this intimate moment we were having. I see him hesitate and be lost in the face of my sudden change. I can clearly see that he has no slightest idea of what's going on.
• I start moving away from him. Breathing heavily, I go towards the door and reach for the handle, struggling, trembling, not knowing what to do, unable to open it. I don't know if it's locked or if I'm just too nervous. I only think about getting out like a desperate person.
• "Ady... where are you going?" he says, calling my attention.