Chapter 53 Desperate Search For A Companion

• I was a mess and a myriad of emotions after talking to Jason. I don’t know why I thought I could change his mind when it was already made up on the path he wanted to take. It was so hard trying to convince myself that this was the same man I loved and it was so difficult to keep trying to tell him he could stop, but how do we come back from killing those innocent people? He killed pups and that wrong could never be righted no matter what he did, not that he was willing to even correct them. I love Jason, I really did, but after finding out what he did; I don’t even know what to do anymore. I’m heartbroken beyond imagination.
• Right now, I had to push thoughts about Jason to the back of my mind and focus on trying to get someone to go on this trip with me. I should have taken Dominic just like Jason suggested, making things faster and easier, but I could not bear to go with someone who killed innocently with Jason. Right now, they all disgusted me and I would rather go with a stranger than any of Jason’s men, but the problem was how to find the person that was willing to go with me to Hondona. It’s not going to be an easy journey and I know it would be difficult to find someone who would want to abandon their life for an adventure with someone they don’t know and a cause that won’t be of any benefit to them.
• I knew very limited people that would fit the journey, but the bigger problem was getting them to agree. I walked out of my house and locked the door behind me so I could start searching. Brenda's mom’s health was worsening with every time I wasted. I needed to hurry and quickly get someone to go with me. I promised Brenda I would do this and I have to fulfill my promise to her and her mom. They had placed all their hopes on me and I wasn’t going to fail them.