Chapter 49 Shadows Of Guilt And Secrets

• There was still Aariv. What would he do if he learned about my massacre? To be fair, I think he had already learned about it a long time ago. It would be no surprise if he were to randomly mention it in a conversation when things got heated up, or if he just wanted to prove a point. As my mind lay on Aariv, I began thinking about the many things he had told me throughout my life, most of which I had disagreed with, even to this day. He had always said that I was never the sort to take things at face value, and neither was my father and the father before him. He also said that he did not see us just as people who were cautious of information, but as people who were foolish with information and would rather fly by the seeds of our trousers rather than properly analyze data.
• The last thing we had ever discussed was the dungeon that lay here in the abode that no one knew about. Well, not particularly no one, but no one in the sense that no one was ever supposed to even know about it, but they did. There were exceptions: I who had learned about its existence through a book; Aariv whom only God knew where in the world he learned his facts when all he did all day was sit in his tiny space and do nothing, coming out once in one day to probably check if my rash decisions had not burnt down the Abode yet or to check if he had died while he sat and was now in heaven; Jason, who I had locked in there; and Samantha, who I had locked in there too; and of course, Liam who now that I think of it, I presently feared that he was going to go around the world blurting the fact that I had locked him in a dungeon he never knew existed in the same abode he had grown up and spent all his life. I wondered what they had seen in the Abode. Had they seen any woman who beckoned them to commit suicide, as Aariv had made me believe? The woman whom he said my great-grandfather had kidnapped from a human company and kept in the Abode. Using her to pleasure himself whenever he felt like it. Strangely enough, my mind began to wander closer and closer to the dungeon until I was almost there physically. I considered going to take a look but decided against it. What was I going there to find, anyway? It was not as if the answers to my prayers that Brenda didn’t slip away from me were hidden in that dungeon. I sighed heavily. The day had already started to show signs that it would soon brighten up any moments from now, so I needed to head back to my place to catch sleep before the next morning. I walked back sluggishly as if I had no care at all for anything that ever happened in this world. My head was aching me badly from all the thinking I had been doing. Thinking that did not make me wiser. That I had not learned anything from at all. A waste of thinking. I slowly pushed my door open and went straight to bed. It would be nice to have someone in bed, I guessed, just to get my mind off everything. Should I call for Minnie? I thought. The answer came to me immediately. No. That would be bad. She might get followed. But who would dare follow her? I thought.
• Then a knock came on my door. “Who is it?” I called out.