Chapter 95

• Two Blue Moon
• HAERA
• One would have thought a lot could be achieved within the period of five blue moons but it was different for me or should I say it would be different if one is trying to remind another of who they used to be. Five blue moons were what I was given yet two had come and gone but I was yet to achieve a damn thing. No one understands the struggle, not even Dezra could fathom what my several failed attempts had done to my mindset. I was losing it slowly but day after day. I was like a tank of water with a little hole at the bottom. My strength, hope, and energy were leaking but no one noticed because it happened gradually. I've tried almost everything to nurse my mate back to his normal healthy self but nothing was working. Nothing at all. Two Blue Moon down....three left... "You're not alone, Haera. Never forget that." My wolf murmured but my feelings were the opposite of what she said. I felt alone. The old physician has suddenly stopped coming to treat Alpha Zachary, not even the usual herbs were sent to his chambers anymore. He had given up on his Alpha. The pack had also stopped sending some get-well-soon prayers to their Alpha. The vocational rituals for his betterment had ended too. They had given up on their Alpha. At this point, I wondered who the pack would choose between Alpha Zachary and his vile brother, Tybalt. Although it wouldn't be their decision to make, I still wondered if they were still loyal to their Alpha...my mate. Alan? If I didn't know better, I would have said Alan was my mate's biological brother. He hasn't given up on his Alpha for reasons I do not know. Alan was a loyal subject, a friend maybe. Alan has been motivating me not to give up even though he doesn't try to persuade me with words. I see it and sense it in his actions. Maybe I wasn't alone yet, I felt lonely and unsure of what steps to take from here. "Why give up now when you still have three blue moons left to make him well?" Dezra asked. Perhaps I still had time. But what bothered me was the fact that I had given this mission of my efforts within the past two blue moons. I'd tried everything with the hope that my mate would recover quickly and now, I'm left without ideas. I had become clueless. Hearing the word "mum" from my mate these days felt like he was intentionally killing me. That word had made me miss my momma also. I wished I could coil up in her arms while I tell her all of my troubles and how tired I was. I wanted to be babied by my parents. Maybe then I would regain my lost strength and hope. "Mum, are you alright? You look sick." He pointed out while I remained focused on my thoughts as I lay on my back with my eyes fixed on the roof of his chambers which had become our chambers. I didn't react to Alpha Zachary's voice nor did I react to his looming presence until he blocked my view of the roof with his head. "Do you want me to get Alan?" My mate asked with the same innocent tone, attitude, and gesture that I had come to hate more than I've ever hated anything or anyone else. I felt like smacking his brain back to its position and at the same time, I felt like pulling him to myself while I wept into his broad chest. I needed him to return to me. We all do but I needed him more because I missed him despite not having enough memories with him. I missed my mate. But instead of doing either of the two, I remained quiet which made him more worried. He touched my face softly but the tingles I felt weren't soft at all. They were doing crazy things to my head and my stomach. "You're scaring me, Mum. I would go and call Alan or the phy-" "The Beta is here to see you, Luna." A guard announced and my mate quickly ran to pull Alan into his chambers. "My mum is acting strange, Alan. I think she's sick." I heard Zachary say to his Beta and I'm sure Alan didn't miss the panic in his voice either. I endeavor to make myself presentable for Alan's eyes because I didn't want him to see the bird's nest my hair had turned to. I didn't have enough time to smoother myself though because Alan soon appeared in the room with My mate holding his hands. "I'm fine Alan. What brought you to my chambers?" I spoke before Alan could verify his Alpha's claims but that didn't stop him from taking a keen look at my disheveled self. "I want to believe you are right, Princess." Alan said and he turned to talk to his Alpha, calming him before mentioning the reason for his presence. "I brought the guard's duty scroll for the next Blue Moon and I need you to cross-check and stamp it with the Alpha seal." "But why do I have to cross check?" I whined as I moved to seat on Alpha Zachary's working desk which had obviously become mine in recent times. "Because it's what Alpha does." Alan responded. My mate had disappeared into the adjoining bathroom and I didn't even bother to check or ask him what he was doing. He couldn't be bathing again because he did that this morning. I took the duty roaster from Alan and pretended to check the details for a few minutes before I brought out the Alpha seal. Alan didn't make any comment so I assumed he believed my act. "Princess Haera, I must say, you look pale. Do you want me to call the physician?" Alan asked but I shook my head immediately, handing the scroll back to him. To be sincere, I felt sick in my guts and every other part of my body, especially my heart. My heart hurt the most but I couldn't let the pack see me struggling with my health when I was their only hope at that moment. "No one must know about this. I'm just tired from not sleeping well." I waved Alan off but he didn't seem to believe me this time. "Your health is important too." Alan declared and I smiled, appreciating his caring words. "Mum, I made your bath water. You need to rest." Alpha Zachary called out of the bathroom. I was shocked to hear that from him and I nearly gave way to hope again. These days he had been toying with my emotions with certain words and actions that made it look like he was healthy again. "Alan, what do you think we can do with him today? Is there something you haven't tried yet?" I asked Alan after yelling "I'll be there soon" to my mate who was still in the bathroom. "Well. I haven't tried hunting and training with him because I was scared he would hurt himself while we are at it." Alan said. "We have to try those too. Perhaps you should take him to the training grounds today and use wooden swords instead. What do you think?" I suggested, also asking for Alan's opinions because he was the only person I could talk to. He had been helping relentlessly and he also knew a lot about his Alpha. Even more than I knew about him. "That's a great idea, Princess Haera. I would do that while you'll rest for the day to regain your strength." Alan's statement made me glad because I knew I needed to rest and he taking Alpha Zachary fit the day would give me enough chance to gather my thoughts. "Go away, Alan! You're stressing her out!" My mate shouted as he came out of the bathroom. Alan wasn't surprised but I was. "Will you join me to see a fun game today, Alpha?" Alan asked Alpha Zachary who wasted no time in saying no to his beta's request. "I'm staying with my mum today. She looks sick so I should keep her company." Alpha Zachary declared as he helped me to my feet. I watched his face thoughtfully but there was no sign of recognition except the childish grin he pulled off when his eyes met mine. "I'm fine, Zach. You can go with Alan for the day." I assured my mate but he was adamant. "The whole day! No way! I'm staying with you, mum." Alpha Zachary refused all efforts to get him to the training ground which left me with no other option than to go with him. "What if I come with you? Will that assure you that I'm not sick?" I asked him. "You can't come with us, Princess Haera. I thought we agreed that you will be resting today?" Alan countered while Zachary looked confused. "It's Alright Alan. I'll go with you guys." I muttered before walking to my dress chest to find something I could wear to the training grounds. Bathing before leaving was out of it because I'd come back dirty. "If you insist, then you've to agree to just watching." Alan requested. I scoffed but agreed to not participate in whatever they do which means I might not get dirty as I presumed earlier. I asked Alan to help Alpha Zachary get into his training attire while I dressed up too. Within a few minutes, we were ready to move to the training ground. "What's fun about this, Alan? Let's go back, Mum. I'm scared." My mate cried when he saw the brutality of the warriors who were training on the grounds when we arrived. He stayed close to me like I was supposed to be a shield for his bigger body. Alan led us away from the public area to a more secluded part of the training ground which I assumed was an attempt to protect his Alpha from the questioning gazes of other people on the training ground. "You used to like playing here with shiny sharp swords." Alan said to Alpha Zachary who stared at Alan like he wasn't sure who he was talking to. Alan offered me a seat which I accepted gladly. "You got the wrong person. I don't have such memories and I've never been here before." Alpha Zachary responded, walking around the training ground like he was trying to understand some things. I hoped again. But it didn't take much time for my mate to ruin it. "Alan! See it's a snail." My mate yelled. "We are not here to pick snails, Alpha. We're here to remind you of those memories you lost." Alan replied. Although I didn't agree with his tactics because the physician had told us not to be too direct with Alpha Zachary about his lost memories. But the physician wasn't available anymore so why should I listen to his words. "Quit playing around, Alan. Your words make my head ache sometimes and I don't like it." My mate grumbled and I didn't know what to think. If the headache was a good sign or a bad one. "I want to believe it's a good one because reacting to those words means they are getting to him. I smell a huge success coming our way." Dezra said, encouraging me. "I'm not so sure, Dezra. He keeps giving me mixed signals." I said to my wolf while I watched Alan give a wooden sword to his Alpha. Dezra didn't reply so I focused on the instructions Alan was listing out to Zachary. Now that we're about to begin the process, I began to doubt everything. What if he hurt himself while trying to fight? Or what if he hurt Alan? "It's a wooden sword and they are both strong males. So how bad can it get?" My wolf mumbled. "Anything is a weapon in their hands." I informed Dezra. "Are you ready to start!" Alan's voice had changed from the usual one I was used to when he roared like the warrior he was. Alpha Zachary's eyes shifted between Alan and me as he struggled to hold the sword properly. "I want to go back to the chambers with my Mu-" Alan didn't allow his Alpha to finish his sentence before he made his first move, swinging his wooden sword to strike. I anticipated my mate's move but he didn't move from his position. My eyes became wide as Alan closed the distance between them and still yet, Alpha Zachary stood his ground or more approximately, looked lost. Was he in a trance? "Alan stop!" I wanted to scream but my voice came out as a whimper that I could barely hear. Alan finally got to my mate but he didn't attack him like I thought he would. He merely poked Alpha Zachary's chest with the wooden sword. I was relieved.... "Get yourself into the game, Alpha. I won't be nice next time." Alan said, shaking his Alpha out of his daze before putting space between them again. Alpha Zachary was focused this time but that doesn't ease the anticipation I felt. "Aaahhh." Alan charged and Alpha Zachary copied the sound but instead of running towards his opponent as he should, Alpha Zachary ran away from him and straight to where I was sitting. "Aaaahhh....help me....mum!...it's a squirrel!" My mate cried out fearfully, breaking my heart further. Yet, another failed attempt and even hunting have been canceled from the list of possible scenarios that could help him recover. It was a lost and hopeless case.