Chapter 38

• HAERA. How possible was it to freeze all over again when your body was already frozen and rigid at a spot? Well talking from my current experience, I could tell how very possible it was for someone to freeze for a second time. My body was already frozen right before he even growled at me. The fact that he toppled me over and laid on top of me like that very night already had me frozen to the bones. And when I looked into his eyes, it only made me want to remain that way for life. And then he growled. He literally growled, baring his teeth at me. It was then that I was able to decipher both of the looks in his eyes as something other than anger and confusion. Yes they were there but it was more of him fighting his wolf as the black and grey fought against each other. "You." He said again glaring straight at me. It felt like he wanted to say something but his wolf was making him lose control. I wondered how he was able to keep his wolf in control and if he was as crazy as Dezra was. I tried to say something but my mouth only hung open. My lips ran dry and I licked it to keep the dryness off of it. That one movement, made his eyes fall to my lips and only made my own heart want to tear out of my chest as if it wanted to meet face to face with his own. My chest heaved up and down, meeting his bare one and even if I was clothed, I could still feel his heat. I was pretty sure my eyes were whirling out of control too. Dezra was growling inside of me at the closeness between me and our mate. She wanted out but this wasn't a time for her. Even I wasn't sure it was a time for me because I had completely all sense of reasoning laying underneath him. I was held in a trance just looking into his eyes and it was driving me crazy just being so close to him. "You..." He growled again...this time...softer...less threatening and more in control. I couldn't question why he kept saying that one word. For a moment, I thought he recognized me. I really thought he did and my heart lept with Joy at the thought but it didn't last. It was short-lived when he said his next words. "Why...why do you smell like her?" I felt my rigid body take another state. Not relaxed and no longer rigid but I just wasn't sure it was my body settled into because of his words. He didn't recognize me. "Why do you smell stronger than her? Why does it feel this good to be close to you... why..." His words trailed off as he eyed me almost painfully. He suddenly leaned in closer to me, to the side of my head, then I felt his breath fan my neck. It was hot and it made me close my eyes. What was he doing? What was I doing? My body tensed under him when he sniffed all around my neck before burying his head there. My eyes shut close at that sensation of just feeling his hot breath on my neck. He sniffed harder around it and released the sexiest groan I've ever heard in my life and that's saying something because I've never thought groaning would sound so sexy. I hated hearing the sound from Gennora or the other maids and even Balfour sometimes when he's complaining about something related to his food but I found this one alluring and sensous in all it forms. His body heat matched mine with the same intensity that I felt like was burning up and it wasn't even from the outside. I felt it inside of me too. There was something different about how it made me feel. How hot it made me feel. "Mate..." He whispered hotly in my ear just as I felt his teeth graze my skin slightly. I shivered at the cold feel of his teeth and slight touch of his wet tongue He sounded and acted drunken. Like he was drunk on something other than wine because he didn't even smell of wine. I could tell it was the proximity we had as mates. He was drunk on my scent and he found it hard to hold himself back. "You smell so good it's driving me crazy." Well that makes two of us... I was going insane too. He was driving me insane. I was hot all over. "I want to mark you right now...I'm barely holding back...I don't..." He trailed off and I guess action really do speak louder than words because I felt his tongue stick out finally and lick my slightly on my neck. I let out a silent gasp holding his naked sides with my hands. His muscles tensed around my touch. He could feel everything I was feeling. Our feelings. Emotions all aligned in the same place and it almost sent me out of the edge. This was never my plan. I didn't expect it to spiral out of control this way but I couldn't stop myself. He wanted to mark me. We were both in heat. Our wolves were going crazy inside of us. Screaming in our ears that it was the perfect time to claim ourselves. To hold on to ourselves as we make a promise of forever. This was never my plan but it was to my good if Alpha Zachary marked me right there and then. It was to my own good that I would have my mate back. I could feel my heart beat faster because it was finally happening. Unexpected but happen. Confusing but happening. Uncertain but happening. His tongue licked right at that spot just below my nape again. His teeth grazed it occasionally too as if teasing himself and me in preparation for what was to come. He was preparing me for when he sinks his teeth inside of my skin, draws blood and claims me as his for eternity. He began to lick in short but precise strokes on the same spot where he would bite into and I couldn't help the moan that left my lips as I grabbed him tighter. "Fuck." He breathed out. He pressed his body closer into me. Particularly his lower part and I moaned when I felt that hard part of him in-between my thighs. Heat pulled between them in a way that made me want to squeeze them together but he used his legs to part mine and settled in the middle making me thrust my hips up slightly so I can feel that friction again. I sighed heavily when I felt it again. He was hard and straining against his pants. I felt that inner part of my body vibrate and hum at the first thing close to an intrusion in forever. I almost forgot this was meant to happen. Sex and marking went hand in hand for werewolves and it was sometimes hard for them to keep it together at the mate bond ritual. As soon as they marked themselves there, they find their way to the nearest room to complete the marking. And on rare occasions like the one I was experiencing, it went hand in hand. I didn't come prepared. Fuck! I didn't even know what to prepare. I didn't know we would go this far. I didn't expect us too. I didn't even expect myself to be lying in his bed and deriving pleasure from him but I lost the will to think about anything else other than his tongue licking on my neck, his teeth grazing it slightly, his lips suckling on it and his hard self grazinge between my thighs. He created that friction again, rubbing us both through our clothes. My legs wrapped around him on impulse because it just felt too good. Simultaneously, he rubbed himself on me while also suckling on my neck. We were both clothed down under yet it felt so good as he rubbed us together. I was behind myself with pleasure. I could feel myself go numb down under and needed some sort of release. His tongue strokes on my neck got faster and so did the strokes of his hard and clothed member inbetween my thighs. My chest was heaving and I was breathing so hard. My moans intensified into little sobs and cries of pleasure that I almost began to shed tears because of how good and overwhelming everything felt. He let out a deep groan and bit me slightly on the neck. I held tightly to him like I would fall off the bed when I wasn't even on the edge. He was relentless as he continued to push against me. And then I reached that point where I couldn't control it anymore. Where it felt like I was about to burst into pieces that couldn't be savaged again. And I did. With a loud cry that I muffled on his shoulder as I bit down on it. I felt waves of heats surge through me, toppling me over and over. Making me curl my toenails and dig my fingers into his skin. I smelled my arousal only it wasn't even my arousal anymore because I already spilled it out from been dry-fucked by him. I didn't fall over the edge as fast I thought I would. The sensations kept coming and tears clouded my vision. He didn't push his member into me yet but it still felt so good that it took a while for me to get down from my high. I couldn't believe i just had the first release of my life in the most unexpected way. He didn't stop rubbing himself on me and I knew he was chasing his own release as he sucked on my neck. I knew it was probably red already and ready for him to sink his teeth into. It was happening...it was really happening. "Ughhhh..." A hot groan tore out of his lips as I felt him tense in my arms. He pushed against me a few more times with grunts of pleasure while I held on to him for dear life. He then goes a little lax against my body but still sucked on me. He sniffed around him again. "Fuck...your arousal...I want to feel it. I'm going crazy with not being able to feel you wet against me." I whimpered at his words because I felt myself go aroused all over again and then he moved his head away from my neck. Right then, I knew he has suspended the plans of marking me and now had something else in mind. He didn't look at me as he began to tear at the blouse of my dress in a rush and like an enraged beast. He began to tear down my clothes and I didn't care if the clothes weren't mine. Erylis could go to hell for all I cared. I just wanted to feel his hot body against mine. His hot lips all over my body. I wanted to feel him everywhere on me and inside of me. I was burning all over, he was hot but I still wanted to both our flames to collide and burst into bits of nothing. He was close to ripping it off when he suddenly stopped. Something... something stopped him. I opened my closed eyes to see him staring down at the uniform I was wearing before his eyes shot up to meet mine. I gulped as it did and fear shot through me like jolts of electricity. I've never seen someone's eyes switch so quickly from whatever it was we were both having...to rage. He jerked off the bed like he just did the abominable as he sat on the edge of the bed and let his hands roam his thick black hair in frustration. I couldn't help but feel that he regretted what just happened but I could tell he felt our connection was more than something we both could control. "Alpha--" He didn't let me talk. He shot off the bed and raced at me, grabbing me in one go off the bed and backing me up against the wall with his hands firmly around my throat. My hands gripped his as I fought with the feeling of them clasping down on my throat and restricting every form of air flowing through my lungs. His eyes held dead rage as he growled at me; "What did you do to me?"