Chapter 80

• Claudia
• I try to convince myself that what I am doing is the best, but the truth is that it is very difficult for me to pretend that I still believe in his repentance. Something inside me broke when I realized that I am a weak woman who needs to be saved at every moment. I no longer want to be the same naive and manipulable person as always. I need to learn to be strong and decisive, to know how to hide my emotions and be the one who controls the situations around me. However, I feel an even greater fear, I fear losing myself in the process.
• I can't understand how I can achieve that change without ceasing to be myself. I can't help but compare myself to Hannah. She is so strong and sure of what she wants, even if she is on the wrong path. She knows how to defend her position and no matter how much everything is against her, she does not get intimidated or run away. On the other hand, all I know how to do is cry like an idiot while begging for someone to come and rescue me. I no longer want to be that weak woman ever again. I don't know if I can keep up the deception for many days, but I swear to myself, to that desire I have to change, that I will do everything in my power so that she does not realize it, no matter how unpleasant it is to be by her side and pretend that I am still her puppet.