Chapter 84 Priority

• M E R E D I T H
• Early in the morning, I discovered Diether sleeping next to me; we were both naked underneath the blanket, and he appeared exhausted from the shade of his black eyelids. My ear was resting on his naked chest as I carefully raised myself up, trying to press it up against the area where his heart was, and I could hear the soft rhythm of his heartbeat. Since we both had showers at the same time before going to bed, he smelt as though he had just come out of the shower. I also adore how fresh-smelling his armpit smelled as it seemingly became one of my favorite scents now.
• Thinking about how everything had transpired from last night makes me feel absolutely worse for getting jealous and mad over something that I never even knew about. I guess with the vast age difference that Diether and I have made this relationship kind of complicated, especially about the fact that I have not been in a relationship before. Then again, I thank Diether that he is mature enough to understand me. I honestly felt bad that I had to confront him about something that I had stupidly suspected. I should remind myself that he is a fully grown adult and that he is much busier than I am.