Chapter 51 NOSTALGIA IS POWERFUL

• M E R E D I T H
• As soon as I realized I had plans with Carver tonight, which I had completely forgotten about until the midst of supper, I grabbed out my phone in panic. As a result of my earlier cancellation of our morning plans, I feel even much worse for having forgotten about going out with him for dinner and that clubbing thing with Ramona. Carver has always been so understanding and he never really asks much but well we meet every single day in the campus and we basically go on dates every single day. Sometimes I would think about it as burdensome and think that the weekend would be my only way of spending it on my own or somewhere where he is not around.
• I exhaled heavily, feeling a bit bothered about the fact that I find it burdensome to keep going on dates with Carver. I feel so bad and I feel like an awfully horrible person.