Chapter 31 YOU AND YOUR FUCKING GUILT

• M E R E D I T H
• I started cleaning up the brushes and every cup that I had used and walked over to the sink where I kept my distance away from Diether because for the past few days I have been thinking about having with sex with him. I needed to stay away, stay the fuck further away from him before I could end up doing something with him that I will regret again which he will make me feel that it is my fault. In the back of my head, I just want to finish cleaning everything, grab my painting and leave as soon as possible because I do not want to be with him at all.
• There was silence in the art room and I assumed that he might have left the room or stayed outside but as I slowly looked at him over my shoulder, there he was standing adjacent to where I was standing and he was not making any single sound. The complete silence was deafening to me and it was too much to bear because of the fact that we were alone in this room and that the sexual tension was building up more and more even though I tried to destroy the piled up sexual tension skyscraping over me.