Chapter 66 At Ease

• M E R E D I T H
• By the time evening came, I agreed to meet up with Carver so we could speak about things and I could finally settle everything with him. I wanted to end his agony of waiting for me to end and I want to end my agony of pretending to be actually into him. I wanted to finally put a stop into dating him and giving him false hope that he actually has a chance. I wanted to finally put an end to this constant guilt feeling that I have been feeling towards him and how I have been hiding my sexual relationship with Diether the entire days and weeks that we were dating. I knew that I had to put an end to this once and for all because he deserves to know that there absolutely is no chance for me and him because it was not going to work.
• I was nervous and the more I feel nervous, the more I forget the words that I have practiced because, well, I have already sorted out my thoughts and I want to say the words that I have prepared. I have found the reason that I was going to say to him and that I was going to be honest with him because he deserves it, even though I know that I am going to get hated by him for it.