Chapter 6 BANGING

• M E R E D I T H
• “You told him what?!” Ramona exclaimed out loud.
• “I did the right thing.” I answered right away.
• “And when was lying the right thing?”
• “In circumstances like that, I had to.”
• “No, you should have told him the truth.”
• “How was I going to say it? Huh? Like hey I did remember everything from last night, I remember how I asked you to fuck my mouth and how it gave me mental orgasm just thinking about how your cock went in and out of my lips. Oh and by the way, I remember how I called you daddy and I liked calling you daddy!”
• “Yes!” Ramona squeals as she walks to my bed and sits next to me, “You could have told him the whole truth!”
• “And embarrass myself in front of him? No way. I have trauma just remembering what I had done and it disgusts me to think that I had actually done that.”
• “What do you mean? You are just reaching the point of your life where you are actually ready to explore your sexuality. And, obviously you are a late bloomer, but being sexual is not so bad and it is not so disgusting, give yourself a break.”
• “Sucking a cock is not so disgusting?”
• “No.”
• “What?” I chimed in shock because of how confused I was.
• “Listen, I have sucked a few ones, different sizes and colors but who cares? It is human nature.” She smiles and laughs.
• “But that is you.”
• “I know, that is me, I do it and there are millions of girls, women, who do it too. Sucking a dick is normal nowadays and there is this sense of pleasure when you suck a dick, like in the back of your head you just want him to come all over your face.”
• I swallowed hard as I looked back to the feeling when I was actually sucking Diether’s dick in that damned hallway and I can actually understand what she is talking about right now because I felt that too.
• Ramona continues, “And we are both different but doing sexual things are not so bad, yes sinful and everyone knows that but everyone is still doing it, you know?”
• I sigh heavily, “I am just not used to being like that. I mean, I was so into it, like I was so horny and I never actually got horny but at that moment, I was so lustful.”
• “That is normal, late bloomer.” She chuckles.
• “Do you think it is because of the alcohol?”
• “It could possibly be or maybe there was something about him that night that actually made you feel that way for some reason.”
• I groaned inwardly and covered my face with my hands, “God and I called him daddy, of all names!”
• Ramona squealed as she looked excited while chuckling and giggling, “You know, he is bringing out the animal inside you that has been fast asleep for all these years.”
• “There is no animal.”
• “Yes, there is, come to think of it? Maybe that is your kink.”
• “Kink?” I parroted.
• “Yeah, perhaps you are attracted to older guys that is why you were never actually attracted to any boy our age because you, my dearest Meredith, is fascinated with creatures older than you.” She smiled at me widely while she was holding my chin with her hand. “You are obviously attracted to that man.”
• “No, I am not.”
• “Oh come on, you have got to admit that there is a sexual tension between the both of you?”
• “Well–”
• “Ah!” She cuts me off as she points her finger on my face, “You do not have to answer that because it is painted all over your face.”
• “Okay, so there is something I feel down there when I see him and that is the problem because I am going to see him most of the time in a week for months while Professor Historia is on maternity leave.”
• “Well dear I wish I had the same classes as you, I would masturbate in class.”
• My brows creased, “Mo!” I smacked her on the arm.
• She laughs, “Relax, jeez, I am not going to steal him from you.”
• “There is no stealing happening because he and I only started and ended that night and stopped teasing him to me, I honestly get reminded of how I acted from that night and it embarrasses me. I mean, is that alright to call a guy daddy?”
• “Yes.” She answered sternly with a huge smile on her face which definitely did not look comforting. “I have said that a couple of times during sex or making out.”
• “Can you explain more about the word banging?”
• “What is there to explain about?”
• “Well, what does banging actually mean?”
• “Fucking, Meredith. I mean, did you both actually fuck?”
• “Umm, no?”
• Her brows creased in the middle of her forehead as she looked at me in a very confused manner, “What? What do you mean you do not know? Did his dick get inside you?”
• “No? I do not know.” I groaned in confusion.
• “What?!” She exclaimed. “You would know if he is inside you.”
• “It happened so quick and Lawrence was calling me and I panicked so I dressed myself up and left him without looking back at him.” I groaned inwardly. “Ughhhh, it happened so fast and I left him with his pants down, hard erection.”
• “Oh no…”
• I pulled my head up and faced her, “Is it that bad?”
• “Well, I have never left such an impression on a guy that way. He must have been ready to fuck you but… Jesus, you left him like that. I did not know. No wonder he was alright with you not remembering what happened because you might have actually hurt his ego.”
• “What? How come?”
• “Well for starters, you initiated getting into that hallway which he obviously took it as flirting, second you called him daddy, third you sucked his cock and fourth he was expecting you to have sex with him, but you did not. He must have thought at that moment that you were just leading him on because you left him without saying a single thing.”
• I groaned as I covered my face with my hands, “Oh God. He must think that I am actually a bad person.”
• “Well, only he can answer that.”
• I faced her again and asked curiously, “Should I tell him that I actually remember and tell him how sorry I was for acting like a wuss?”
• “Honestly, now that I understand your side, it would be better to actually continue acting as if you did not remember, to save yourself from more embarrassment than you can handle.”
• “But that makes me a bad person.”
• “Come on, he is a guy, and he is old, he probably will not think much about it because men are designed that way if you act normal when he is around.”
• “But how can I act normal?”
• “Just be Meredith.” She smiles at me before she stands from the bed and asks, “Are you not going to join me for dinner?”
• “I do not know.”
• “I do not take no for an answer, I promised Carver that you will be with me.”
• “Can’t you just tell Carver that I am not feeling good?”
• “Well your suitor actually does not take that answer from me.”
• I rolled my eyes at her, “He is not my suitor.”
• “Whatever, we both know he is so into you.”
• “Carver is just a friend.”
• “Well you to him is not the same situation. Come on, let us just go.” She pulled me from where I had laid down and grabbed my sweater before we headed towards the door.
• Ramona and I walked to the diner near the university where most students will be hanging out to grab something to eat since the place was decent, the food was great and not so expensive for students like us. Ramona and I joined the table where Carver was and he had already welcomed us with a huge smile on his face.
• “Hey ladies.” Carver smiled.
• Carver Cornell was not a bad looking guy, to be honest, he is actually handsome and he does not even try to. He has long surfer hair with natural blond locks that just falls below his shoulder, gray eyes that are absolutely beautiful by the way, he stands six feet tall in his athletic body which is actually great for sports but he never actually tried getting into any teams. I have been friends with him since we were in our freshman year in college and I guess it has always been the three of us since then. He is majoring in Photography and was friends first with Ramona before she introduced him to me.
• “Wow Car, you already brought us food. You are as charming as ever.” Ramona smiled widely as she began to eat.
• “Well you did tell me to order ahead.”
• Ramona widens her smile, “Thanks, cutie.”
• I smiled at him too as soon as he looked my way, “Thanks Car.”
• “Not a problem, Mary.” He answered with a wide smile on his face. “So, how was the first day?”
• “It was okay, dad.” Ramona joked.
• I chuckled as I watched Carver roll his eyes at her while she continued to laugh.
• “I heard the Art department has a new professor that took Professor Historia’s spot?” He opened up as he turned to me, “Did you see the new sub?”
• Ramona chews the food in her mouth before answering, “Oh she surely did see him alright.” She commented while staring at her food with a smile on her face.
• I widened my eyes at her as soon as she looked at me.
• “Oh yeah? I heard from a lot of people in my department that the new professor is a handsome man. Every female in our department was jealous. Was he really?” Carver questioned.
• “Was he, Meredith?” Ramona asked while smirking at me.
• “And?” Carver chimed.
• “And what?” I questioned.
• “Was he creepy?” Carver asked.
• “No, Carver,” Ramona answered. “The new handsome professor was not creepy at all so you need to calm down.”
• “Why don’t we just enjoy the food and talk about things other than school?” I smiled at them.
• We continued to talk about other things but honestly, my mind was thinking about how Diether was making me feel so damned good with his hands.